I have favoured my right side over my left side for as long as I can remember. I am right handed. I kick right footed. When doing my own manicure, I try as hard as I can to perfect the right side. I shave my right leg first in the shower. I put on my right sock and shoe on before the left. I sleep on the right side of the bed, turned onto my right side. My right eye is more hazel than brown. Whenever I have to have blood work done or get a shot, I make them put it in the left arm before I even think of offering my right.
I am also super into reiki. I know this is coming from left field (ha!) but it’s relevant, I promise. Despite my best efforts and karmic pleas, I am facing a huge hurdle in going to graduate school – a hurdle I didn’t think was going to be an actual reality. In my head, it was the worst case scenario. So I decided to go have my chakras realigned because I feel out of balance and lost.
When I went for my first ever reiki session back in May, I was told that my sacral chakra, my root chakra and my throat chakra were sluggish – the chakras dealing with love for self, health, speaking your personal truth and being grounded. This time, I was told that it’s not my chakras that are out of balance – it’s my essential alignment. I mean, I could have told you that – I am a walking, talking ball of stress and tears right now.
We are all divided in half, a left side and a right side of energy. The left side is our feminine side – intuition, the ability to let go and go with the flow. The right side is our more masculine side – the effort into making things happen for yourself. Apparently my right side is so dominant that I don’t even have a left side right now – I’m all right but not alright. And that makes sense. So much sense, especially with what I am dealing with right now.
I was also told at this session that the ultimate goal of the universe is for us to be happy. If you repeat something enough, whether it is good or bad, the universe will make it happen for you because it thinks that this is your goal, no matter what it is. So that negative, self-fulfilling prophecy shit? Is so accurate. And now I have to completely reevaluate my way of thinking and pray that in 11 days, I will be headed off to graduate school.
So basically, for my situation right now, right isn’t better and I need to let my left side take the reins. I need to let go because it’s no longer in my hands. And I need to come to the conclusion that I am doing all I can, but I can’t keep beating a dead horse.
I’m going to continue to ask for good thoughts and karma my way, because stranger things have happened and the way my life works out is it always does, better than the way I expect. Watch this space and please, keep sending your thoughts to my higher power.
Because I think, eventually, everything will be all